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Strung out on heaven's high, hitting an all time low [28 Jun 2010|12:52am]
Hmm I little while ago I had a dream that rather than four forces in the universe(gravity, electromagnetism, strong and weak nuclear forces), there were five. I knew that the fifth force began with a C and consisted of two words, but for some reason I could never remember what the name was. I spent several different and unrelated dream scenarios trying to figure it out. It was always on the tip of my brain, but I just couldn't get it.

So thinking about it in the waking hours, I figured that dreams are just an alternate universe, and that fifth force must be what makes it so fantastical. Our subconscious takes us there and we exist with that fifth force, as we always have, which is why dreams make sense while we're dreaming. It's just the proper laws of the universe at work.
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In other news, some people still really need to grow the fuck up [27 Jun 2010|01:33pm]
So today was pretty much a marathon of Doctor Who season 5, which I had kept up with week by week, but now was my chance to watch it all in rapid succession.

Thoughts? Probably what sticks out the most to me is how much more I like Amy the second time around. She always managed to drag down the episode for me before, which I chalked up to bad acting and poor writing. I still think Karen's a bit dull, but I appreciated the moments where she really shined(like at the end of Cold Blood) a whole lot more the second time. I still don't know if I'm completely sold on her as a character yet though. But now here's something to think about, since she was so important to season 5, perhaps in season 6, now that she's not such a focal point, we can get some more real character development. One can hope I suppose.

The whole schism in fandom with this new season revolved around Moffat being the head writer now that RTD left, and the major difference in tone that came with that. RTD was all about epicness. Epic stories, epic enemies, epic disasters, epic monsters, epic love stories and the list goes on. RTD looked at a story and just thought "perhaps this could use a bit more drama and angst" and that's what drove his stories. For better, or for worse. The thing about RTD, was that he could get you in the moment. As you're watching(particularly for the first time), you can't help but get swept away in the pathos of it all.Of course, having David Tennant's many faces kind of contributes to that as well. However, upon further inspection, one realizes that what they just watched wasn't really that good story wise. Of course, he had his moments. I will still go out on a limb and say I loved RTD even with his shaky story telling. But now we have Moffat and Matt Smith, a completely new team and a completely new tone.
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[26 Jun 2010|08:24pm]
Ok so I need to type in order to look like I'm absorbed with something other than the awkward fest of tension that I'm currently stagnating in. So, at the moment, I'm alone in the living room of a couple consisting of an OCD chick who over analyzes and over thinks everything including things that don't exist and a clueless dude who though innocent, is most likely just willfully ignorant most of the time. It's ok for the most part, but there's always something seething under the surface. He's too loud in the kitchen. He doesn't do this. He does that. He shouldn't do the other thing but he does anyway. I kind of want to say "Lady, your making it sound like you're miserable with the man, try talking about something else or you know, stop fucking thinking so god damn much." So what is it this time? Why am I sitting mercifully alone at the moment? Why was I sitting in the middle of a bitch fest moments before? A lap desk. A fucking lap desk. Granted, from what I can gather, it seems more like the lap desk triggered long smoldering issues that have been building up and have just now bubbled to the surface. What wonderful timing. At first it was just awkward, but it's to the point where the more I think about it, the more pissed I get. Mostly at her for exploding in the first place. I mean, really? Cause a scene like that? Over that? How old are you, really? A bit of restraint does people good, you know. Of course, if he would be just a tiny bit more observant, messes like this could be avoided all together. Though I suppose with fragile females, it doesn't take much. Man up, woman. It's taking everything in me not to just walk out the door right now. But I'm not going to, you know why? People that would be obnoxious. That would be immature. That would be useless theatrics only meant to prove a point that could be proven in much more efficient ways. Brilliant, now I have to use the bathroom. I swear I'm going to go insane if this is too frequent of an occurrence. It makes me wonder if either of these people were ever in a relationship. Good god I've never been in a relationship but I think I could handle these situations better than these too. Then again, I suppose we always think that, don't we? Granted, I shouldn't even BE thinking about this right now! Screw it, I'm just going to watch Doctor Who.
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Is there Life on Maaaars? [12 Jun 2010|11:36pm]
Whilst on my British Television kick I stumbled upon Life on Mars, a cop drama about a dude who gets hit by a car and wakes up in 1973. Interesting concept, and it had John Simm, so I figured it couldn't hurt to watch. Though it had it's odd moments (Rape is never ok! Even when it's female on male!), for the most part is resonated well for me. The plots were interesting and well written, and the characters were endearing. It was never overblown like Law and Order could be, but it was still primarily a character driven drama. The ending though...it felt rushed. It was a short series, only two seasons, and that's kind of what happens when you have great shows that are cancelled early. They have odd to shitty endings. I don't know if I should say it was shitty, but it was a tad unsatisfying. Apparently the spin off Ashes to Ashes ties up loose ends, so I suppose I'll have to check that out. Oh, and Phil Genister was absolutely brilliant, Ashes to Ashes would be worth watching for him alone. I think I'll have to go back and write down some of his insults and inappropriate yet perfectly accurate metaphors for future reference.
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Vincent and the Doctor [06 Jun 2010|05:13pm]
I don't normally do random reviews on my journal, but this time I figured why not.

So far I've been a fan of Doctor Who's fifth season of the revived series. I've loved Matt Smith and the eleventh Doctor, and even the rather obvious theme of the ButtCrack in the universe, as I'm genuinely interested in seeing where that goes. Personally, I'm hoping that it somehow connects to the events in the End of Time, because A) So far season 5 has had very very little connection to the previous four seasons, which weakens it a bit, and B) it would be really really cool. Of course, whether Moffat will do that remains up to speculation, but I would be a bit disappointed if there wasn't SOME nod to the RTD era. But I digress.

The tenth episode of this season is more of a stand alone, there weren't any references to the AssCrack, and it could easily have been watched without any prior knowledge of the show. This was a bit refreshing, particularly after the last two parter. I suppose the reason why I feel compelled to write a review of this is that everyone's been singing its praises as the best of the season and maybe even the series, and while I thought it was great, it definitely had some major pit falls. However, I will start with what I liked.

On a superficial note, this episode was absolutely gorgeous. There were many many shots that were just lovely(I'm thinking particularly of Amy sitting surrounded by sunflowers) and the starry night scene was a wonderful use of special effects(something Doctor Who isn't exactly known for). The scenery was beautiful and the overall look really lent itself to the mood of the episode. Considering it was an episode about an artist, it was a great idea.

Matt Smith continues to be awesome. This is not new or surprising, but it's still worth noting considering there are still those who don't like that he's not Tennant. What I like about Matt is that he manages to convince me that he's an old soul, something Tennant never really did despite all the verbal reminders. I'm hoping Moffat leaves romance for the Doctor OUT of his tenure, because it was a major complaint I had about the RTD era. Naturally, this wasn't Tennant's fault, and I do adore the man, but Matt approaches the role from a completely different and more subdued angle, which is greatly appreciated. As for actually episode at hand, yes, Matt Smith is awesome, he works perfectly with the material given and I believe he always will.

Tony Curran as Van Gogh was excellent, as was the characterization of Van Gogh in general. He wasn't just a historical figure they happened to work with(as they did with Shakespeare), he was a fleshed out character with depth and real emotions. They didn't tip toe around his mental issues too badly, though I understand that there's only so much heaviness they could get into for a family scifi show. I thought it was interesting, and pretty sad actually, how awkward and hesitant the Doctor was when it came to Van Gogh's depression. I think he handled it like he would handle his own issues, he would try to look at them from a purely objective and unemotional stand point, despite obviously caring, and when faced with them head on, he wouldn't know what to do. Of course Amy on the other hand is immediately emotionally invested, although she wasn't really holding The Idiot Ball this episode.

The ending, the ending, the ending. I know that's what everyone's jizzing themselves over, and it really was so lovely. There isn't really much more that needs to be said.

And of course there were the other nice little tid bits of lightness and humor, which added a nice balance, considering the subject matter. I particularly loved Amy and Eleven talking about how if she had kids with Van Gogh they would be the Ultimate Ginger and Bill Nighy's character.

Now, for what I didn't like.

My main nit pick for this episode, and why I wouldn't call it perfect, was the fact that the alien had very little to do with the rest of episode. Now this wouldn't be such a problem if it didn't take up so much screen time to the point where it takes away from the emotional impact of the theme. It's a shame really, as I feel like they missed out on great depression/monster metaphors and they didn't really make much of an effort to connect the alien to Van Gogh's experience. It seemed like the script was written and at the last minute Richard Curtis was all "Oh shit this is Doctor Who, I need a monster!" and he just threw it in with no thought of cohesion. I suppose it bothers me so much only because of the missed potential. I feel like something was missing in their portrayal of depression/suicide that could've been remedied if only the monster was handled better.

The only real complaint I have for the ending is the song. It's not even that the song itself was bad, it just wasn't Doctor Who. It reminded me of other tv dramas that always have sappy indie-rock songs at the end to add to the emotional impact, and Doctor Who has never needed that, especially not this time. I don't know, maybe I just wasn't used to how different it was from the standard formula of the show, but I still don't think it was at all necessary. That and the whole "For Amy" thing in the painting, that was kind of weird.

At one point I also saw some unfortunate implications in this episode. Of course, Van Gogh had to kill himself, there was no way around that(although it's never explained why. The whole fixed points in time thing has always been selective and inconsistent). But one can't deny that there's an odd message in there. Van Gogh realizes that his life's work will one day be appreciated as some of the best in all of art history, but even after that his depression still gets the better of him. I feel like that very nearly says "Hey all you depressed people, nothing will ever make you feel better", but I suppose that's just one way of reading into it. But hey, despite that it manages to be a very hopeful ending, which I suppose is a credit to the writing.

Karen Gillan still can't act, sorry. She's gorgeous, and while I'm still on the fence when it comes to Amy as a character, Karen doesn't do her any favors. Particularly next to Matt Smith and Tony Curran, who acted circles around her. I will admit that she has her moments, and I have a feeling that she got better the more she worked(I can only say that I have a feeling, since the episodes were filmed out of order), so I'm hoping I'll like her more next season.

And that be all.
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OBNOXIOUS DOUBLE POST [16 May 2010|01:10pm]
Doctor freakin Who and Matt freakin Smith.


I love it, I really do. I love Moffat for the most part(though RTD definitely had his strengths too) and Matt just makes me happy as Eleven. I'm a little iffy on Amy, though I think it's more about Karen not being the best actress than the actual character. I don't dig the romantic tension between her and the doctor because it's pointless really. As an audience, we kind of know that it won't happen. That, and the fact that the dude is 907 years old. I'm sorry, but the Doctor is an old man. William Hartnell had no problem avoiding UST with his younger companions, and that's easier to imagine because he was physically old. Now that you have younger actors though, it seems like he HAS to have a little sumthin-sumthin with the companions, and it's a bit tedious. Though I will say that I feel like Eleven isn't written as having romantic feelings for Amy. He cares deeply for her, but I almost feel a father/daughter dynamic, which I think would be really interesting to explore. Besides, Amy has Rory, who's a BAMF and I really hope he doesn't turn into another Mickey. Some people still feel like as a character Eleven isn't well established yet, but I like that we're still getting to know him. I think he'll coalesce into a consistent character the more time goes on and he goes on more adventures. I do hope he sticks around though. I don't want another Eccelston where he's only around for one damn season. Oh, and the Master needs to come back. Preferably in the form of John Simm. Or if not, some other evil GQMF.
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I wish I could go back to college, life was so simple back then [16 May 2010|12:57pm]
So, what to say about this year? I learned a whole lot about all sorts of things, and lots of stuff changed. I realized that if you were to tell that all this would happen to my ten year-old self, I would probably never believe it or be freaked out at the idea of going through so much at once. But in all honesty, it wasn't all that overwhelming, and I think an important thing to learn through life is that there isn't much that you(or at least I) can't take.

Fun times! Yes, lots of fun times, with new and fun people. I am indeed capable of enjoying the company of people I haven't met before. Still not capable of getting out of the aromantic friend/sister figure zone, but let's not get ahead of ourselves, one thing at a time.

And I know this year has been successful because I actually want to go back. It's not like there's one thing or person that makes me miss it though, I think it's just the experience in general. I'm not totally in love with UF or anything, but I'm not miserable and I don't find myself thinking I've made the wrong choice. I know that I would feel this sort of ambivalence no matter where I went, so it's irrelevant to even consider, really.

Still completely in love with history. The big academic decision now is what to minor in. I have four things in mind, and I could technically do all of them, but considering I want to actually graduate in four years, it might not be the most intelligent path. I'm considering German, Anthropology, Medieval and Early Modern Studies, and Classics. I don't know though, I'll talk to an advisor about it at some point I guess.

Escaped college with a cumulative gpa of 3.83. Not bad I suppose, but a bit annoying considering I could've easily had a 4.0 if I wasn't lazy with math the first semester and I actually thoroughly read my syllabus for psych second semester. Ah well such is life.

Next year's tentative schedule:
Intermediate German 1
Languages and Culture
American History to 1877
Western Civilization from the 18th century to the present
Ancient Egpyt
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[24 Jan 2010|02:16am]
It sometimes amazes me how much someone can talk. About something completely irrelevant to my interests. At two o'clock in the morning. They acknowledge that it is irrelevant to my interest and even apologize. But they just. Keep. Talking. Shut the fuck up please. Can you not see that I'm trying to ignore you? Good God, I thought not doing this to you would make you not do it to me.
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Don't sleep with stockings on, for you will wake up at 2 in the morning with foot cramps [09 Jan 2010|11:04am]
I feel very pathetic for being so happy about hanging out with friends. Apparently I appear much more confident than I actually am, so perhaps it doesn't matter much anyway. One of my friends cooked us steaks, baked potatoes, and green beans. Oh and there were also brownies. Wtf. I hadn't had red meat in forever, but my instinct for politeness overpowered any other urge in the moment. I'm scolding myself for having the knee-jerk reaction to say No when she invited me over for dinner. Bleh, even I don't know what I really want. I just deal with the consequences of that sort of thing later. After dinner we sat around and just chatted until about 2:30 a.m., it was all very classy. Oh, and the joys of Elisabeth have been disseminated, I feel very proud. There's only three of us so far, and we've made it our goal to add more testosterone to the group.

I'm trying very very hard to avoid taking out a loan for this semester. I went through the calculations, and I don't think I need it yet. Next year I most likely will, but I don't want to borrow money if I don't have to just yet. The mother figure will definitely give me a hard time about this(but god forbid I give her a hard time about that retarded condo and the irony of ironies of the fact that my dad is my source of financial support), but she's the type to let go if I seem sure enough. I'm not a reckless spender at all, hell I barely buy anything. All the money I earn goes right in the bank.

I really want to go walking again, but the weather has been annoying as hell. I don't mind it when I'm walking around campus and all, but it's not very conducive to long distance power walks. I've taken to working out in my dorm with stuff I got for christmas cause I hate working out in public places.

Speaking of christmas, I have acquired pants that fit. I don't like them for many reasons.

Oh, and Doctor Who was so fucking amazing I can't stand it. My history TA reminds me of Matt Smith with eyebrows, which makes me excited.
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and I'm his friend Jesus! [24 Dec 2009|11:07am]
For some reason yesterday I got the random inspiration to look into graduate schools. I guess I just don't want to make the same mistake I made in high school, which is that I don't think I considered college early enough. Freshmen and Sophomore year were just sort of throwaways, and I really don't want that to happen in college. This is coming from someone who hasn't even taken a history class yet. Hell, I don't even know what I want to specialize in yet. I almost don't care where I end up for graduate school, which is what I'm trying to fix. I figure if I start searching now, I might be able to find a school/program and fall in love with it soon enough to have enough time to work for it. I don't want to get too ahead of myself though. It's tough to say where I'll be financially four years from now. From what I've researched, I'm better off going for a fellowship that'll pay for my education and even give me a living stipend. Bah the whole thing is inspirational, if a bit daunting at the same time.

Anyway, I managed to escape my first semester of university with a 3.78 GPA. I suppose an A in a five credit course kind of balances out a B in a three credit course. I'm really looking forward to next semester as it actually contains classes relevant to my interests. I've missed history.

Apparently college has made me more confident, which is something I didn't really notice until it was pointed out. As it turns out, someone making that observation has made me more confident, so now I have +2 confidence. Score. The oddity though, is that my self-esteem isn't really much better. I suppose it doesn't need to be, I've managed this long on what I've got.

Hooray Christmas.
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[01 Sep 2009|03:15pm]
I kind of think of me and the German Language as forbidden lovers who have been kept apart for so long(since I was like...in middle school) and now we are gloriously reunited. I don't care what others say, I think it's a great language and I want to learn it damnit! It's actually my favorite class so far, and unlike the others, it's nice and small. My instructer is a cute little German chick with a heavy accent, and german musicals have taught me quite a bit already. I'm not sure how far I'll go with it, but I guess I'll just see how it all works out.
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[23 Aug 2009|03:10pm]
So yeah, dorm life. Apparently there's been Floor Drama already, but I'm pretty out of that loop. Probably for the better. Room is tiny but cozy, biking is a pain in the ass(literally) and my roommate's mother won't leave us alone. I met some people, but no real friends were made yet. Classes start tomorrow, but I'm not too worried. I don't really know what to expect, so I guess I shouldn't expect anything. That's one of the many things I've already learned around here, along with not counting on Calli for directions.

Oh oh, and someone peed in the shower stall next to me and it flowed over into my stall. That's always pleasant.
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[16 Aug 2009|03:55pm]
Well, I guess there's a worst time for everything but good lord this seems almost uncannily bad timing @_@
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[04 Aug 2009|12:27pm]
So yeah, college classes, I has them. I mean, I'm not taking them yet, I'm just registered for them. But still. College classes. I have a nice little schedule too, and I managed to make my earliest class at 9:30, which I think is pretty good. My math class is at 11:30, so I'm really excited about that. I'm also taking German, Cultural Anthropology(for my social science and diversity credits), and Extreme Weather(for my physical science credit). Ironically enough, I didn't get a history course yet, but I think I might take two to make up for it next semester. I'll also try to get another math class and German 2, just to round it out a bit. Man, I'm just counting down at this point. I'm moving up August 20th, which is in the middle of the week, so hopfully it won't be too swamped with people trying to move in. Oh, and I did some dorm shopping. I'm such a boring shopper though, I didn't want to spend so much money on stupid things like more towels, which we have plenty of already.

Oh, and I finally sat myself down and watched the entire first season of Flight of the Conchords, which was too amazing. I really want to see the second season now, even though I heard it wasn't as good.
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[16 Jul 2009|11:20am]
I think everyone would watch CSPAN if it was always like this

It's the SMOOOooooOOOOOooooKKEE
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[12 Jul 2009|02:55pm]
Ok, so I just finished the third season of Skins. Thoughts?

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[10 Jul 2009|11:35am]
Despite the fact that I've been working and was so ready for a nice snooze, I can't sleep. So what'll I do? I'll just give my thoughts on TV shows. They'll be under a cut, to spare your flist, but should you be curious you are welcome to inquire. Who knows, I may spark some interest in a new show.

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[04 Jul 2009|01:46am]
Hello there, everyone. How's my summer been going so far? Well, pleasent enough really. This summer has been quite a memorable one so far, what with all the changes going on. Perhaps if I list them it will put it in perspective

-My mom and I moved in with her boyfriend
-My best friend and her mom are moving to Chicago
-My cousin is moving to Orlando
-My dad moved to Georgia
-I'm moving to Gainsville
-My friends and I are going our seperate ways for college
-I'm going to college, holy crap

So there you go, that's quite a bit of major change for one summer I think. Oh well, it's all appropriatly timed if you ask me.

Also, I've been working a somewhat steady gig at my mom's office. It's not bad really, and I've even gotten a bit used to talking on the phone. Though it has convinced me that high heels were invented for the sole purpose of slowing women down.

Between all the crazyness I've been reading a bit and watching some shows and movies online. So far I've watched:
-Pushing Daisies, which I've absolutely fell in love with
-Wonderfalls, which was also awesome
-Dead Like Me, which I haven't managed to finish, but Mandy Patinkin compels me to
-Flight of the Conchords
-Arrested Developement, which I watched while it was on TV, but it never hurts to watch it again
-And I've finally sat down and forced myself to watch Skins, which is a bit addicting
-I tried to commit to The Tudors, but I couldn't get into it. And this is coming from a history nerd

Like I said, I've also been watching some movies, but that's another post for another time. As for books, I've been working my way through American Gods and The Rum Diaries.

Oh, and my birthday just passed a few days ago.
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[07 Jun 2009|11:50pm]
Tony post! I don't really remember everything, but here's the important stuff

-How the hell did West Side Story only win one award?
-Shrek looks retarded
-The Billy Elliot performance had me "wtf"ing all over the place.
-Why oh why did Billy Elliot sweep so much? Is it really that amazing?
-Liza, I love you, never change
-Fierce bitches were all out tonight
-The "In Memorial" thing was actually really sad this year. Awesome people need to stop dying
-Hair looks awesome
-Next to Normal didn't get NEARLY as much as it should have
-[Title of Show] lost in the only category it was nominated for?! Figures
-Neil Patrick Harris was adorable, but I felt like he wasn't shown enough. That last song of his more than made up for it though
-The opening number was great for the most part, but it definitely had its awkward moments, such as Brett Michaels xD
-What the hell was going on with the sound? The microphones were crapping out left and right.
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[03 Jun 2009|10:54am]
Oh yea that's right I graduated. Last day of school was pretty uneventful, but at least we were treated to one last Epic Tully Walk Out. I'll miss him. Later there was sushi with friends and other stuff I don't remember. A trip to the mall is in there somewhere, but I kind of lose track of the time between the last week of school and graduation, what with random rehearsals and whatnot. Graduation itself was as lame as expected, but Tanner gave me my diploma and I got to hug Mrs. West, which I thought was cool, and there was a nice big dinner with lots of people who gave me lots of money.
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